” But if I live in the flesh, this is the fruit of my labour: yet what I shall choose I wot not.”
I think I would take Paul’s resume any day. Consider all that he accomplished in his lifetime. He was very successful in two careers.
The first was working for the Pharisees. He studied their laws and became well versed in the Old Testament traditions and values. He knew the law inside and out. As the Christian church grew, the Pharisees saw the threat it brought to their control of the people, so they asked Saul (his name at the time) to start prosecuting Christians and bring them in to prison. He stood over Stephen as they stoned the disciple to death. Then they sent Him to Damascus to root out Christians and bring them to justice.
But on the way to Damascus, the course of history changed forever. Paul was confronted by Jesus:
3 And as he journeyed, he came near Damascus: and suddenly there shined round about him a light from heaven:
4 And he fell to the earth, and heard a voice saying unto him, Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me?
5 And he said, Who art thou, Lord? And the Lord said, I am Jesus whom thou persecutest: it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks.
6 And he trembling and astonished said, Lord, what wilt thou have me to do? And the Lord said unto him, Arise, and go into the city, and it shall be told thee what thou must do.
7 And the men which journeyed with him stood speechless, hearing a voice, but seeing no man.
8 And Saul arose from the earth; and when his eyes were opened, he saw no man: but they led him by the hand, and brought him into Damascus.
9 And he was three days without sight, and neither did eat nor drink.
Paul’s sight was restored, but now he had a new vision. He knew the law, and he knew it pointed to Jesus Christ as the Messiah. He started preaching the gospel and was called to take it not only to the Jews, but to the Gentiles, and the church was born through his travels. What an amazing resume.
But Paul looks at this resume as an afterthought. Heaven is his goal, and he wants to do more and more. It is not enough. He must keep going. And he also knows that he is not the one who will determine when his mission will end. That is up to God, so he will keep preaching.
Lord, help me never to grown complacent with what I have done for you in the past. Renew my zeal and revive my heart every day. Give me fresh revelation to write your songs and poems, that they may be a blessing to those who read them. Help me to hear your voice when you speak to me. May I always have a desire to reach one more soul for your kingdom.