” For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.”
There are a lot of things we have to learn when we first get saved. We need to start reading our Bible so that we can better understand how to walk with God. Many of us need to learn how to pray and how to worship. We need to learn what God expects of us and how we are to go about doing those things. All of these come with time and the help of other Christians we come to know.
But the hardest lesson of all is learning that it’s not all about me. I know a lot of Christians who are concerned about themselves, they’re healing, their financial needs, their spiritual growth, and what God can do for them. But this verse says that God saved me for his good pleasure, not for mine.
You see when we center on ourselves it’s all about pride and God hates pride. Pride is thinking about oneself before thinking about others. It doesn’t matter whether you’re depressed or elated, whether you are happy or sad, whether you are an introvert or an extrovert, whether you think well of yourself or very low about yourself. It’s all pride, and it has to go. It is hard thing to get rid of, and even harder to recognize in yourself. This is one thing you need a good Christian friend to help you get through. I have struggled with pride all my life, and I finally learned that my wife can spot it best. So now she has my permission to point out when pride is rising up in me, and I have learned to listen. It works out great.
God is the one who is working in me and He is working in me to fulfill the plan that He has for me. This plan is a good plan (Jer 29:11) and will bring me much success. What I need to do is to make sure that I am seeking His will in my life, not my will. When I start to understand His will for me I’m going the right direction.
The beautiful thing about knowing you are walking where God wants you to walk is that it cuts down on your worry and concern about where you are right now. You know that God has you right where He wants you, so you can be at peace with your current situation. Let me speak for myself. I was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma, a cancer in the Leukemia family, on March 10 this year. I have had 2 stem cell transplants since that time. Now, I have neuropathy in my feet, and my right foot has drop foot. I have to walk, even around the house, with a walker to make sure I don’t fall. I developed a rare thing called Parsonage Turner Syndrome while in the hospital the first time which has my right shoulder useless (I am right handed). And I also have a neuropathy like feeling across my chest above my stomach which constricts that area, and is felt every time I move.
I tell you all that so you can see life is not perfect where I am sitting. But I am so thankful to God because He has been merciful to me. I know I am walking in His will, and I have nothing to fear. I believe he will bring me through, and a powerful witness will go forth out of all this. He will be glorified in the end. That is all that matters. If I have to live through a little discomfort for Him to receive glory in the end, that’s fine with me.
Lord, keep me in the center of your will every day, all day. Let me always heed the warnings when pride is rising up in me. I just want to bring you glory, Lord.